A Celerbration for Her

I am very late on telling how the celebration went but I think it will be ok. It was very difficult to stand before her grave and tell her all the wonderful things going on in my life. I wanted her to be there for them. I wanted to her to be able to laugh with me. It was almost like there was no point in having thoes things happen without her. I have never cried so hard for a friend in my life. I have lost a lot of friends for different reasons. Things from we grew up and had nothing in common any more to the boy in our 3rd grade class gave one of us a Valentine and didnt give the other one. But never have a lost a friend like this. And I shouldnt sayI lost her cause really I didnt she is very much in my heart. I should say I have never gone without seeing a friend because of something like this. And out of all the friends that have come and gone I have never missed any of them like I miss her. Sure I have always wanted to know what they are doing or how life is going for them. But never have I wanted more than any thing to give up everything I own for them to be back in my life. I can honestly say that I would do anything to have her back here. Even if I was told I could never talk to her again. Just the thought that she is not laying in a gave and she is walking around beig happy is fine. It would hurt me to my soul but it would be worth her happiness. So the celebration was hard but we made it through. And I will believe each year that passes will get harder. Only because she wont be at all of the wonderful events. But as I said before on the day she was laid to rest and I placed that white rose inside her grave I will see her again. And it will be the most wonderful day any human could have ever experience because I will not only be with a friend but I will be with my other half.