Jan 23, 2007

Plz Dont Get Offended

So I was sitting in Chem class ealier this week and I was some what .....oh what shall we call it..... oh heck we call it what it was I was ashy. Well actually I was Very ashy but n e way I asked my friend if she had some lotion. And she was laughing cuz I was so ashy. And then she looked at her hands and were like oh I'm ashy too. Well she is white and I am black so we looked at each other and just started laughing. So we put on the lotion. And this kid next to her was talking about the D and how it was all rough and ghetto. And when close minded ppl start talking I block them out. Well the conversation turned from being close minded to being flat out racist. No one used the N word or anything but there were jokes made. And yes they sat there and looked at me like is she going to say something. Just as I was bout to open my mouth and say what I had to say my friend who I was just laughing with about being ashy turns to me and says I have a joke but Ash plz dont get offended. Rite then I knew it was going to be racist. So she says her joke (which I didnt find funny) and her and the other people at the table start laughing. I looked at her and said did you really just say plz dont get offended. And she was like well it was not to directed at you personally. And I believe thats where I lost my kool and went off. I said what do you mean it wasnt directed at me personally. You just insulted my culture, my race, my ancestors not to mention a number of other things but I am not suppost to take it persoanlly. Then plz explain to me how I am suppost to take it. She sat there with her mouth open and not saying a word. And I said my point excatly. I moved away from the table and have not been back. I think the thing that hurt me the most was not that they were telling racist jokes or even that they were closed minded but the fact that one of my friends had the never to look at me say plz dont get offended and then tell a racist joke. I am hoping she will understand my pain and anger and well.......no get offended!

Jan 22, 2007

I am

I am more than you know
I am more than I show
I can go further than you know
I can blow your mind just by speaking mine
So the next time you think you know
Just remember I can go further
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Today is my 18th birthday and I must say that it has been a good day. I have had so many things happen to me these past 19 years and I must say its been an adventure. I am looking forward to what expreiences life will present me. I have seen friends come and go. I have gain family that is not blood related and I have learn who I am. And how far I can push myself. Now that I know this I think I will try to push myself a little further every time I think I cant do something. So lets see how far we can push ourselves. And when we think we have pushed ourselves to the limit we will keep going. Yeah that sounds like plan. Well thats it for me and my baller self. I will get @ you when I get @ you.
Holla Back Right Now
Princess Ashley

Jan 20, 2007

My Cage Bird Dosent Sing


MY CAGE BIRD DOSENT SING
Because she's in a place where she cant spread her wings
Her weeping endures for nights but joy never comes in the morning to take me to new heights
My heart is accompanied by such a quality of hate
That my tearless eyes continue to motivate
My impulse to stray away
From a Lord and Savior that has the ability to take
Daylight away
MY CAGE BIRD DOSEN'T SING
Because the world continues to clip her wings
And impales her heart
With a pole long enough to tear her apart
She declines from who she is
No longer viewing blue skies, seals her lid
A lid containing an illusion of her flying
An Image leading to imperishable crying
MY CAGE BIRD DOSENT SING
Because her silence imprints an image left only by a queen
Her vital but silent melody liberates
Those imbalanced by an abundance of hate
An inability to make the world go round
With the love that produces harmony and sound
But eventually her spirit will fly up above
Matching that of a white dove
But you see.........



MY CAGE BIRD ONLY SINGS
To a tune that matches the flapping of her wings


I tried to take ur advice Tati so tell me what you think. But other than that today was a good day. I love my new classes. I think these are the best ones I have had since I have been in HS. The only sad thing about yesterday was my daddy and brother were not here and it was hard to turn 18 with out them. Well I'm goin to watch One on One and eat the rest of my b day cake. Much love to you all.

Princess Ash